CALIFORNIA

For me, for this job, there is just something that doesn't feel right about it...

Maybe it's that I feel like the 3rd wheel of the group. Two of the guys that came here are best friends. They do lots of stuff together. I don't connect with the other guy who came here with us, no matter how much I try really. He is just too quiet, and just not the kind of person I connect with. I don't like feeling like I'm the 3rd wheel, though I do so very often feel that way. I just don't feel like I belong anywhere right now

I don't like that I'm not selling anything. It's really starting to wear on me mentally. Everybody is like, it pick's up in a few weeks, blah blah blah...but I won't have the finances to leave if I have to in a few weeks, and if things continue to go like they have it will wear me down to a point I don't want to go to. You work a lot of hours with this job, you go out about 10 am, and you don't come back for the day until about 8. It leaves you time to do nothing, and part of the reason I came out here was to see the country. I think that bothers me as well. I'm only out here 10 weeks, and one of those weeks is gone, and nothing has been accomplished...

The only thing that I have gained since I'e been here is I've gotten a little more confident in talking to people.  I stutter less, talk more clearly generally, so that is a good thing. And honestly, it looks like that might be the only thing I get from this trip (at least the California part) and I think I'm ok with that now. It will be so useful in other things, other ventures in my life. It's only been a short period, but I feel like I've gotten so much better in that period. 

The plan now is pretty much to get a job in Utah, a state I spent like five days in but really liked and was actually really sad to leave when we headed out here. I felt like I had fun every day, even when I didn't really do anything. I just liked seeing the mountains, seeing the Temples, seeing people I knew that I hadn't seen in forever, and some people I didn't expect to see. It was good, I really enjoyed it, and this I am not enjoying...

{Driving/Machine}

I like driving, and I'm apparently a driving machine. We were originally going to drive into Missouri, around the St. Louis area, and stopping for the night. We got started kinda late, and some how or another we ended up just driving continually, or essentially continually...we stopped at a rest stop right outside of Kansas City for a little nap. Well they did, my body doesn't really do naps, and I had slept an hour early while riding, thus pretty much taking up my quota of napping for a good deal into the future. So the guys crashed for an hour, which unsurprisingly turned into 2, and I just sat on a table pretty much the whole time. I was ready to hit the road, ready to get to a real stopping point, ready to feed the wanderlust.

When the guys came to, I realized that my key had somehow been turned to the "on" position that whole two hours, and so my battery was dead {for the moment, it was new, like a month or two old so I knew that it wasn't dead dead...nobody has taken responsibility for this yet}. So, the other car and I went to Walmart to find some jumper cables for future use, as essentially everybody we asked didn't have any, or said they didn't have any {I will give them the benefit of the doubt} and what we found was a Walmart that had seemingly been stuck in a time warp on the inside. It was the new shiny colors of what Walmart is doing with stores now, but on the inside it was small, and bizarely laid out, and just kind of weird all around.

I got jumper cables, the others met us there as some person had been nice enough to jump the car off, they got some things, and were off to get to Colorado, which was originally where we planned to get the 2nd day, and we still did, but early than we though. All in all I pretty much beasted like 17 hours of driving out of like maybe 19 total, required for the 1700 miles we drove essentially non-stop.

I don't like to sleep, I do like to go, so I think I'm pretty much perfect for long distance driving.

This story is a bit behind the times, as we spent several days in Colorado, and then drove to Utah. I really enjoyed the Colorado mountains (though the rest of CO looked kinda like Kansas...oh Kansas...} and I have loved Utah. Cafe Rio, meeting cool new people, seeing a few people I kind of wanted to see but wasn't really sure if I would get to, meeting people I had kind of heard about but didn't really know, and seeing people I had kind of forgotten about as well. Colorado was cool, but Utah has been my favorite for sure.

However, today we head to the state of California, whose motto is "Eureka, I have found it!" I like hte sound of that. Maybe I'll find lots of things in California, who knows...

{Wanderlust}

wan·der·lust (wndr-lst)

NOUN:

           A very strong or irresistible impulse to travel.

{A Severe Case of the Wanderlust}

The bloggings of a college-kid who has lived in the same state his entire life. He has lived in the same smaller-ish town his entire existance, except for living in a moderately large, yet "hum drum" city while in college. He wants to wander around the world, do amazing and fun-filled activities with friends already obtained and those waiting to be made. So far he has been outside the U.S. twice, for a total of 2.5 weeks. He has ventured no farther West than Tennessee in his entire life for any period of time unless on a plane, and a brief visit to Idaho. He thirsts for knowledge, cultural understanding/expansion, and meeting interesting people. Essentially to "experience experiences" that he feels are surely awaiting him in the world, and is constantly in search of them.

This will record his adventures while traveling across the country during the summer, and as he arrives in his final destination of California where he will work/live for almost three months. This summer is the last chance for the young hero/adventurer before his full release into the "real world".

Blogging may be about the biggest of adventures, or the tiniest of occurrences. They may include findings, stores, peoples, places...virtually anything. Prepare for adventure!